Myself Inside a Fridge

When I was a little girl, I used to stand in front of what seemed to be an enormous fridge, opened it, and said, “I want something, but I don’t know what.”

My dad replied that meant I didn’t really want anything... but I was sure and determined that I wanted something. I didn’t know what it was, not because I was a picky child or didn’t want to try something new—quite the opposite. There were and are so many types of food I like and so many new things I could try that I had no idea what to choose. That’s why I usually closed the fridge door and left. I wasn’t going to grab something until I was sure that was what I wanted. Who knows, it could have been my anxiety developing, which currently manifests as snacking on popcorn or pita chips.

However, I look back and relate my life to the fridge—a life filled with possibilities and decisions. Every fruit, every glass of milk, every vegetable, and every type of food I decided on was necessary for my growth, providing the energy my body needed to become who I am today. Every time I chose to grab a strawberry, it awakened my belief in the existence of a red thread—the part of me that loves to write and watch movies or series, especially those with a romantic story behind them. Each banana and yogurt ignited my sporty and always active side. I was able to drink the perfect amount of milk to never have broken a single bone, despite how energetic, adventurous, and daring I am. Each piece of papaya or melon, being part of parrots' nourishment, awakened my social side, making me an outgoing and talkative person who is not afraid to speak her mind, even in front of a big crowd. Moreover, every little piece of pie eaten in secret aroused my interest in mathematics. The constant presence of something new to try inside the fridge fueled my curiosity, making me a curious person. After all, every food option, each unique taste, and even particular smells developed my persona.

At that time, in my innocent mind, choosing what to grab from the fridge was undoubtedly the most important decision of my day. Now, it remains an important selection due to my health. Nonetheless, these days, I must make the most important choices regarding my plans and goals by myself and for myself. It’s a moment where I must consider not only my enjoyment but also the direction of my future and the path I am willing to take. It is encouraging to look back at how I was when I was just a kid. Not knowing exactly if I wanted cheese, ice cream, a tangerine, or an olive was not discouraging for me because I knew I would make my choice. I find that most of the answers to the questions I now have were answers I let go of long ago, and the person I tried so hard to become turned out to be just someone I had to return to. Not knowing with certainty if I want to work in the sports industry, the movie industry/product placement in films, consulting, or an AI-related position must not be discouraging for me because I discovered I am a multipotentialite. This means I have the ability to enjoy and excel in different fields; I have many paths ahead of me, and I am willing to pursue all of them.

At any given moment when I opened the fridge, there were numerous possibilities requiring decisions I had to make to get where I am today. Today, there are numerous possibilities requiring decisions I have to make to get where I will be tomorrow.